香香,

Went to work with a heavy heart this morning. Been thinking about what to do next about us. Well I do know what is the best way. Question is whether I can do it or not. Worked hard today and seriously, my performance was stunningly impressive. I guess I did well at work today. But to be honest, I just used work to drown myself. As days past and as the end approaches, I really don't know what I can do. I just can't let go even though I know I may have to. I asked God if this is how things should be but still I do not see a clear path ahead. I know I did say I will respect your decision but still, I would rather be selfish and think more for myself. You once told me to love someone, you have to first love yourself. I did that. I love myself more than before. I only hope that one day, God will have already arranged a path for us to be together. Maybe I'm thinking too much but I still do believe that God created all man and women equally irregardless of their race, language or religion and that God loves every individual the same like his own child. Truth to speak, I may have already accepted christ long ago. I do believe in God. I'm just waiting for my path to be clear to me. I'm hoping that one day, I will find the path I seek. No matter how hard things is now, I'm still trying. Trying to be that someone where you can depend on and that someone that will be there for you no matter what happen. Even though we did mention that we may not be friends again, deep down, I know I will still care for you no matter what. Even if it means losing part of me, I will still do it for you, for your happiness. Self sacrifice does not mean not loving myself. Just like Jesus did, he did not sacrifice for himself but for the rest of man. Likewise, I will do the same. I just hope one day, when you realize how true I am to you. Let time bring our path together again.

Loves,
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